while the whys are left unanswered i will still praise you

Mar 5 2009

Sometimes something happens in life where I don’t know why. And I may never know. Sometimes the will of God is so vague. You question is this it? Is that it? Lord you must have a reason behind this. And He does. God doesn’t just do something so that He can watch us hurt. I know that I couldn’t answer the question as to why. And I didn’t know the will of God concerning me. What would He have me do with this? You ask yourself questions as to the reasons of such pain. Maybe God intended me to learn this. Maybe I’m going to use this experience to…..and the maybes continue. And you still can’t answer them. But. I know that God does things for a reason. I may not know them. I’m sure that I don’t. And if I can’t know the will of God, at least I can know what His will isn’t. It isn’t to blame Him. It isn’t to be bitter. It isn’t to hate or have jealousy towards others because this didn’t happen to them. It isn’t to not continue to lift Him up in praise…and (this is hard) to praise Him for ALL things.
I know that if God caused this or allowed this…which of course He did, then this was the will of God. And I didn’t want his death to be in vain. So how do I find out what I’m supposed to do with this? God never told me why, and since I don’t know, I’m going to still praise Him. I’m going to still praise Him for being God, still praise Him for taking my son to heaven, still praise Him for knowing that I WILL see him again, and still praise Him with the why’s unanswered.