Nissim
It means miracle.
My husband and I were looking through a baby name book and he spotted the name nissim meaning miracle. We were looking for a name that might mean that.
I prayed to God that I would have a miracle baby. My best friend told me a few days later
That by the time my baby came…it would be a miracle baby.
Today. I don’t even know the date…Monday I think the 10th. I haven’t felt my baby kick since yesterday. What I would give to have him kick me…I know that my faith should be in God and that you should not seek a sign from Him. But to have felt the life and movement inside you and then to not feel that feels like a void. I wish my baby would kick me all day, rather than to not know. All I want to feel is that bumping.
(DEC 2006)
MY MIRACLE BABY
Samuel Nissim Port
Born too soon (but just on time)
Birthday December 12, 2006
First Day in Heaven-December 23, 2006
Samuel had such a hard time, right from the start. At 7 weeks there was bleeding, which we believe was the result of a blood clot that formed and pushed against the placenta. It was such a scary time that first bleed. We checked it out at the hospital, were told that nothing could be done. Except WAIT. It seemed that he was still with me (what a fighter), and it was not discovered that there was really something wrong until a few ultrasounds were performed. They kept track of his weight, blood activity...the usuals, and noticed that he was not gaining the weight like he really should be. I was sent to the specialists at the hospital where there better equipment showed a clearer picture. He was not gaining the weight. They discovered the reason why. And I and others prayed deperately that God would increase his weight. He would gain some...but he was losing ground. Sometimes it would seem that he was doing good because he gained a certain amount, but he was really only half of what he should be. They told me he should weigh...this amount in grams (like I know how much that amount in grams is). I saw a specialist who advised me to call all the family in so that we could all talk together concering this little guy. At first we opted to home and wait and see (talk about tense). He said that there was really no hope for survival at 24 weeks, especially at his weight. I was sent to the hospital after the ultrasound to be re-examined because of a 'reverse-flow' of the blood (which is what the dr's were hoping wouldn't happen...they said that once that happened, they only had a limited time to get the baby out). It ended up that it wasn't reverse-flow...but that one of the veins had 'no-flow'...which usually ended up becoming 'reverse-flow'. We prayed that it would turn-around. The next ultrasound that was performed was followed by an emergency c-section because the 'ifs' became reality.
Born too soon (but just on time)
Birthday December 12, 2006
First Day in Heaven-December 23, 2006
Samuel had such a hard time, right from the start. At 7 weeks there was bleeding, which we believe was the result of a blood clot that formed and pushed against the placenta. It was such a scary time that first bleed. We checked it out at the hospital, were told that nothing could be done. Except WAIT. It seemed that he was still with me (what a fighter), and it was not discovered that there was really something wrong until a few ultrasounds were performed. They kept track of his weight, blood activity...the usuals, and noticed that he was not gaining the weight like he really should be. I was sent to the specialists at the hospital where there better equipment showed a clearer picture. He was not gaining the weight. They discovered the reason why. And I and others prayed deperately that God would increase his weight. He would gain some...but he was losing ground. Sometimes it would seem that he was doing good because he gained a certain amount, but he was really only half of what he should be. They told me he should weigh...this amount in grams (like I know how much that amount in grams is). I saw a specialist who advised me to call all the family in so that we could all talk together concering this little guy. At first we opted to home and wait and see (talk about tense). He said that there was really no hope for survival at 24 weeks, especially at his weight. I was sent to the hospital after the ultrasound to be re-examined because of a 'reverse-flow' of the blood (which is what the dr's were hoping wouldn't happen...they said that once that happened, they only had a limited time to get the baby out). It ended up that it wasn't reverse-flow...but that one of the veins had 'no-flow'...which usually ended up becoming 'reverse-flow'. We prayed that it would turn-around. The next ultrasound that was performed was followed by an emergency c-section because the 'ifs' became reality.
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