Be strong for me until I can be again.

As many of you that read this may know I am currently expecting our 3rd child. Already I had a tense 'spell'...but nothing "out of the ordinary"--at least for me. I had some bleeding earlier with this one too, as I had with the previous two. And was diagnosed with another blood clot. Thankfully, as an answer to prayer, the blood clot had disappeared by my second ultrasound (and as you can imagine I cried tears of joy). It was at that moment after sitting in the car with tears streaming down my face that I finally allowed myself to be excited for this new baby. It is often hard to let yourself love when you fear that you will lose. I can't thank everyone enough for all their prayers...I am sure that it can be tiring at times hearing about all of my pregnancy 'scares' that are probably just normal everyday pregnancy issues...but I still thank you for praying because to me it is still scary, and I still fear sometimes (even though I should be strong and should say "oh God is in control"...well...sometimes I just can't take the stress anymore and I can't be strong...and that is why it is good to have others there for you so that you don't have to be for awhile and can lean on someone else and they can be the strong one until you can get yourself back together and say..."okay....God is in control".)...so I say thank you.

And as the old DC Talk song says "LEAN ON ME"

" lean on me, when you're not strong

And I'll be your friend, I'll help you carry on

For it won't be long 'til

I'm gonna need somebody to lean on

Sometimes in our lives

We all have pain, we all have sorrows

But, if we are wise

We know that there's always tomorrow

You just call on your brother when you need a hand

We all need somebody to lean on

I just might have some problems that you'd understand

We all need somebody to lean on "